Jan 8th 2022
I remember an anniversary I wish didn’t exist… Here is some of what came from these memories… 💔”4 years… It seems unreal that you have been gone from this world for 4 years already…
I hate how I took advantage of time when you were here on earth.
Always, thinking there was time…
Now time stands still… #forever29
However, I still find you in our world… Through similarities in my Linah and I wonder if you blessed us with your energy in her. Sometimes she laughs and I hear you. Her kindness also reminds me of yours.
From the time we left St. John’s where you rest eternal, Linah buckled up, what I saw as an empty seat… But it was not empty, she said it was for you…
So from that day I knew you would be with us forever. As I believe children see more than the feathers…
Grateful you have taught me so much. I just wish I wasn’t blinded when life got so tough.
Always thinking of you.
Jackie
P.S.
Today I did my nails inspired by you. With feathers and colours, sorry no unicorns this time… I can’t help but remember the time of the water colour design, Christmas 2015 was such a glorious time… I miss you Alley, I wish there was one more time…” JEMI
You can check out the post here
https://www.instagram.com/p/CYerRMzF8Ar/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link
I revisit this memory as I reflect on happenings, just two days prior to the 8th… As well as, it’s important to remember that the ones who have gone from this world are not defined as a few dates on the calendar. Yes, certain dates fluctuate all of the emotions that are associated with love of the one(s) that are gone. But there is so much more than birth and death dates…
The struggle through loss is not scheduled… No matter what kind of loss, it’s relative per person. As well as, compiled among all of the different types of losses that are within one’s life. There are detrimental losses, there are also trivial losses. Yet who dictates the scale.?.?.? Also an individual’s perspective…
So…
January 6th 2022
On the 6th of January 2022 it was about 22:00 hours and William came back downstairs after he had already gone to bed for the night. He began putting on his winter clothes.
I immediately questioned what’s going on, what’s the matter.?.?.?.
With that, he said Susannah has been in an accident…
These are some of the scariest words I know…
I gathered some more information and was able to take a breath.
It was just a single car, slide around the corner and bump into the curb that fucked the front end of the vehicle…
Honestly, that was to my relief…
I don’t know whether it’s mainstream media or society or a narrow mind set that has clouded our vision.?.?.? Why do we jump to anger, frustration or disappointment after failure.?.?.? Especially, when failure is forgivable and helps us grow. To me a forgivable failure is when one lives to see the next day. Or the data, information, memories lives on to grow through experiment or experience… Inture, there are no unforgivable failures, only growth and memories…
This is not to say that someone who has passed can’t still be forgiven. But to me forgiveness is for the giver of forgiveness.
Forgiveness is something you give to yourself. You did everything that you could. You supported and loved the MESSY LOVE, HARD LOVE. The best kind of love, the REAL LOVE. AS best as you ARE. WHICH IS AMAZING… You are amazing in your contributions to LIFE.
RELEASE…
Feel the heartbeat…
The energy around you…
Let it soar…
Knocking on the door…
Make sure life’s not a boar…
Always leave wanting more…
For we are to adore…
YOUR…
So make yourself the first to care…
For the one who’s wearing your hair…
Chestnut, Grey, or Appaloosa…
Love the changes, with the ages…
For all the Rages…
You got the Pages…
Proud of YOU and the things that you do…
For some days it’s just getting through…
But others it’s like BOOM who just walked in the ROOM…
TIME to ZOOM…
Why is it that my 17-year-old child was terrified of breaking the car and the trouble she thought she would be in… Sure we had some conversations around what responsible driving looks like. I admit she is an amazing and safe driver. Her capabilities behind the wheel leave me very confident in her ability and responsible choices. But discussing how in the case of the slippery roads, responsible choices mean not even getting into the vehicle… This all helped calm the anxiety that was flowing around the entire experience. But it still disturbs me that the first response to an issue is fear… Now everyone’s perspective is different but I wonder if this is why there is such a high youth suicide rate? That our younger generation don’t know how to cope and problem solve issues?.?.?. This is a large statement and can’t be easily categorized as situations differ per case. But I can’t help but wonder as I have met a few to many adults with low self esteem. I have affiliated this with not learning that failure is part of growth…
In this situation I am grateful that it is a learning moment…
As this moment happened two days before the fourth year of Alley leaving via tragic accident…
Not to mention Amy’s accident years prior only a few kilometres away…
My best friends… My family…
I can’t even imagine the trauma…
My heart aches…
I took the time to make it clear that no matter the cost of a tangible item I will never be ANGRY for losing the replaceable… Yes there are emotions and reactions to events, but it is the gratitude for life that so often is forgotten. I too took it for granted and am still learning… But that is the greatest presence of life, to embrace time, to learn, to grow… To Live…
Yes, I want one more(s)… https://jemsmind.com/one-more-is-never-enough/
But maybe, one more is remembering and sharing the learning through the light of the ones who had to go.
How are we to know?
The answers inside yourself and letting go of all the preconceived influence…
You release yourself with your choice beliefs…
JEMI
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Thank you Fae for your kind words. I so appreciate you taking the time to read what resonates with you.
As for the RSS, I will have to look into it. I am still learning how to really utilize this platform and all the background tech.
I will work to sort this out.
Thank you again.
Light and Gratitude to you.
Jackie
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